Nervous Energy

I have always had nervous energy. I sweat the small stuff leading up to some major event. In school, work, sports, or anything else that requires preparation for a big event, I have have always been the same -- I stress and stress and stress leading up to the big game, test, etc., but when the event finally arrives, I am fine. This aspect of my personality has served me well. I was fairly calm while taking the Bar Exam, and I was a relaxed and happy bride.

I tossed and turned last night. In an effort to avoid this occurring every night this week, I am trying to calm myself with the understanding that this is just how I handle things. I will be stressed all week. However, on Sunday when the gun goes off and the race starts, I am hoping that I can be calm knowing that I have done everything I can (minus my lack of running last week) to prepare for this race. That's all I can do.

I am going to try to spend the next few days putting my nervous energy to good use. I went for a 3-mile run today after work, and I am hoping to do 3-milers on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. Friday and Saturday I get to enjoy hanging out with friends and family and spending lots of time and money at the marathon expo. Of course, I will also spend hours deciding what all I need for the race and packing everything I am taking for the 2-day trip.

After yesterday's post, several people left great comments that helped me put things into perspective. On Monday when I go back to work and we are all talking about our weekends, I get to say "I ran a marathon." That's something that not many people get to say, and that's pretty cool.